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SUICIDE

commit a suicide isn’t the best answer to finish the problem. there are so many people having a rough problem. it’s more complicated and some of them survive. they face their problem and they have a faith that there’s a way to solve their problem.

being a lesbian in a Moslem family, skip 3 semesters of study, cannot pay the rent of boarding room, a burlesque of friends, got fired from the job, being a burden for girlfriend cause doesn’t have money to eat, and parents don’t have any idea about those problems.

and still, people out there have a huge problem more than above, and they survive.

commit a suicide won’t solve your problem, it would only make another problem for people around you. your parents would be ashamed cause their daughter that looks fine and have no problem suddenly died, your beloved girlfriend would be stress and sad because you are gone, your friends would be bothered cause they have to be a witness for the police about what was happening in one of their room cause there is so much blood on their bed sheet and there I am laying down with no soul.

commit a suicide,

it took a few months to the neighbor hood forgets about the incident, it took a few weeks until the police convinced that it’s genuine a suicide, it took some years until someone finds and helps my girlfriend put her shit done and forgetting me.

my parent doesn’t have to save their money to pay my student loan so they can live happier, buy a nice car and go anywhere they want, eat in their favorite restaurant every weekend, doesn’t need to hold my dad’s schedule to see the doctor every month. my friends can live freely cause there’s no more me asking for their help or just ask them to share their room for me to sleep. my girlfriend will find another person who is better and put his/her shit together so (s)he won’t be a burden for her life.

commit a suicide is the best answer for some people who don’t survive, they are free now even though people around them were bothered. they live the new life in the new place and people they left are just moving on and forget about the tragedy eventually.